Tensed

Today is 21st and it is already 8:30 pm. I have come outside the house to relax because I was tensed. 

The sky is dark and a nice, rich navy blue; it is beautiful. Although the stars visible are few (cannot hope for a splatter of stars in the city), the ones visible shine bright and make me smile. 

So...Tissnet is on the 25th. Tiss, one of the top ten colleges in India for psychology. I have aimed high, have had full confidence, still am confident, faltering just a tad, but I gotta get into tiss. There must be thousands of applicants for the exam, a major chunk of them must have applied for clinical psychology, the course that I am applying for. Anyhow, aiming high is what makes life more meaningful and makes you grow after all. 

But I digress. The distressing thing is that today's day was not as productive as I had planned it to be. I had planned to give at least two mock tests today but did not even give one; just kept prepping because I just do not want to skip more than half of the questions in the general awareness section, which I have done in the last few mock tests. I really really do not want a repeat of that. No matter how much you study, there still remains so much more left to study when it comes to general awareness. These geniuses scoring 85, 89... how desperately I want to get into the top ten of the mock tests atleast. But how. Not counting today, I only have three days left to prepare and it does not help that I was ill the last few days.

Now if brahmamuhurat does not help me, I'm going to cry. 

Let's hope I come back here on 25th with good news. Kyuki TISS ke University mein top karne ke bhi sapne hai mere.

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