Almost there

The first time I binged a proper webcomic, I felt inferior to the teens having adventures and reaching heights. There were things in it that could only happen in the fictional world and things that most average teens do not do, but that did not stop me from comparing myself with them. Funnily enough, a character who did something like a 10 km run, 100 pushups and 100 squats everyday pushed me to work out a lot as well. 

That webcomic made me want to leave the land of stories (another funny thing, 'The Land of Stories' is a bestselling novel series). I wanted to leave the land of stories and stop living vicariously through fictional characters. I became averse to watching movies because I wanted to make something of my life, my self instead of wasting the time of my life watching or reading about characters being amazing.

It has been years, I am not a teen now and yet I have not really done anything that would make me proud of myself. I had certain motivations but I changed my path a lot, trying to find the most suitable one but the way my mindsets changed, so did my motivations. From fashion design to ayurveda to physiotherapy and now psychology and this is where I am going to stay now. Next step, maybe a change of place would help me grow, move forward in my trajectory to self actualisation.

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