Emotions 4 - Sense of reality and control

Bhang can make you feel disconnected from this world and make you feel like you are drowning inside yourself. A feeling similar to loneliness but not quite it. It is a mix of motion sickness and loneliness. But not as bad as either because it also does not feel real. The feeling of disconnection with this reality is both a bane and a boon. Bane in the sense that being not in touch with reality gives you a sense of lack of control. Scary for someone who prefers being in control and does not like the sense of losing oneself in the world systems by going with the flow. 



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